In honor of my 8th anniversary of turning 21, here are 20 thoughts on my 29th birthday! In all honesty, I thought by the time I hit 29 I’d be begging to be 21 again but that is simply not true. My early and mid-20s were a rough, trying time for me. Constantly on the search for acceptance and love, doing whatever it took to receive that. As I near my 30s I am finally starting to feel content with who I am, who I’m becoming, and who I’m meant to be. I wouldn’t change anything I’ve gone through as it has all lead me to this moment in time, but I can’t say I’m sad about moving forward and *gasp* getting older! So here are some thoughts, in no particular order, as I near my 28th revolution around the sun.
Random Thoughts on my Birthday
- 29 is not as old as I once thought it was. I know, I know, every 10-year-old kid thinks 30 is old, but I’m glad I’m nearing the end of my 20s. I feel happier and healthier now than I did in my early 20s (when I was smoking and drinking every weekend). Go figure!
- I have blocked the fact that David Bowie is no longer of this earth from my memory. I cry every time I remember.
- I was a very creative kid. I loved to draw, paint, and craft. It is something that I have not given much attention to in my adult life and I intend to change that this year!
- 29 is the year I take back my body. I’ve spent the last 11 years trapped in a prison of anorexia, body dysmorphia, and negative thoughts around food and my body. This year is all about self-love and self-care! *Expect a blog post, possibly several blog posts, around this topic in the future!
- I was watching Thor: Ragnorok the other day with Josh and I officially think Tom Hiddleston is more attractive than Chris Hemsworth.
- The thought of having kids, even in my 30s, still terrifies me.
- I have thoroughly enjoyed winter this year. I know this will be an unpopular thought with many other Texans, but I could not be happier with the weather this year! It snowed twice this season and has been in the 20s-30s several weeks in a row. Thank you, Mother Nature!
- I have THE best friends in the world. I feel incredibly lucky to have had the same few best friends since elementary and junior high school, and I know they will be my best friends for the rest of my life.
- I have been called “cold-hearted” more times in my life than I’d like to admit. I am naturally a future-thinking person and I think in the past that has allowed me to be non-attached and emotionless in situations and towards people. As I try to live my life more in the present moment, I find myself becoming overwhelmed and awe-struck more often. I have welled up with tears two times in the past month; the first time was during the full moon/lunar eclipse on the 31st of January. I was totally taken aback by the beauty and wonder that is this life. The second time was when I was working outside on a beautiful day, waiting to take a yoga class. The wind blew through me and I literally got chills, overwhelmed with how amazing this life is.
- Mustard is, and always will be, the bane of my existence.
- Yoga has completely changed my life and has put me on a totally different path than I ever thought I’d be on.
- Moving to The Woodlands was one of the best decisions I have made thus far. Leaving the city was hard at first and I questioned it for a while. But surrounding myself with nature and trees and fresh air again is unparalleled. I have also made some amazing friends and relationships with other people here and for that I will always be grateful.
- Breakfast foods > all other foods.
- Anytime you are feeling down or upset, remember that things can always be worse…BUT that doesn’t/shouldn’t diminish your feelings. You must feel it to move through it.
- I don’t know where my life would be without Josh and Bowie. Josh and I have been friends for over 8 years. Our romantic relationship came at a time when I wasn’t looking for anything and completely took me off guard, but has proved to be one of the best things to ever happen to me. I didn’t know what true selflessness and sacrifice was until Bowie showed up in our lives. She brightens my life everyday and there is nothing I wouldn’t do for her.
- I think one of the main reasons I can’t comprehend kids is because there is still too much traveling I want to do. Josh and I are taking this year off from any major traveling but for 2019 we have planned New York, France, Belgium, and hopefully more!
- I tend to always be on the move, never slowing down and never taking a break. The universe has a way of forcing you to slow down when it’s needed.
- Getting a stress injury the week of my birthday is not what I had in mind, especially since I’ve been planning my annual birthday camping/hiking trip for months! But, it has taught me a few lessons:
- Things don’t always go as planned. You can either resist the change or go with the flow. Can you guess which one I chose? 😉
- Sometimes you have to SLOW DOWN! Pretty sure those two words are not in my vocabulary, at least not when put together. I had to take several days off of work completely to rest and although it was hard, I made the most of it. I got so much work done while I was stuck on the couch!
- Things can always be worse. We all know this but we tend to forget. Thankfully the doctor is saying *hopefully* only 3 weeks in the boot instead of 6. I’ll take it!
- I have always been a control freak and I am just now realizing how much it has impacted my life. From my childhood where it caused me to constantly worry, from my adolescence where it caused me to become hyperaware of food and how my body looked, to my adulthood where it has caused extreme anxiety…it has ruled my life. I hope I am on the path to changing that this year.
- I feel so incredibly grateful for the life I am living. I have a sweet, supportive husband and a family that are encouraging and cheering me on to create a life built from passion and love.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and for being a part of my life. My journey is just beginning, and I am so grateful that you are on this ride with me!